This is a short note to just say how grateful I am for new beginnings. This last year for all its blessings has been one of the hardest of my life. I became a mother, and then ceased to be one. I found a nice place to live, and am preparing to move. I finally connected with a couple of people I have been trying for years to become close with, and it is all feeling very frustratingly over.
Life has been very demanding, and though last years pruning has left me feeling a bit picked on, I have no doubt that the manure, and shear cuts removing the weight of unnecessary limbs will all be for my good. I have experienced a better understanding of God's desire for us to sacrifice, and the fact that we need to do this to grow closer to God. I miss my little girl, but I know that Doug and I have done what is best for her, and ultimately for us.
This year I am looking forward to finding myself again, and enjoying the happiness that comes from being married to my wonderful husband. I will write poetry. Read great books. Take long walks and watch the sun set. I will feed my soul in hopes that the food will prepare me for what God has in store for me and Doug in the coming year.
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