Timing

Today I was reminded of timing, and how patience goes hand in hand with good timing.  I spent this weekend feeding my spiritual soul and stripping wallpaper.  I am sure there is  a double meaning in that somewhere, but it is late, I am tired, and insomnia is reigning, so coherence and  double entendre are just not going to jive.

Doug and I decided, after a wise friends advise, to consider the chance that maybe God wanted to give us what we really truly wanted,-- a baby. We just needed to take the steps to be ready for said baby.  So instead of buying furniture for older kids I am allowing myself to buy a crib and make a nursery. The whole plan is the old, if you build it motif ... that is the idea in any case.

We are going to continue the state adoption classes with the understanding that we want a baby, and are also happy to take a toddler or school aged sibling as well.  We have wanted kids for so long that we would be happy to juggle two of them, or twins, or whatever God thinks best.  We just want the joy of a baby at least once.  Diapers, 2 a.m. feedings, the whole amazing mess.  And it is ok to want that ... I finally believe there is nothing selfish or crazy about the very real desire I have to travel that road at least one time.

So we stripped wall paper, and puttied wall joints and corners with my favorite pink putty turns white when dry kind.  Doug tore wallpaper while I puttied and with my earlier efforts in the week I got all the wallpaper stripped and most of the seams filled.  Another hour of work and then I can start sanding and priming the walls.

A week ago I told Doug both how I felt and what our friend had mentioned.  His reply was completely in line with my thought process.  I said, "Well I guess we make a nursery then."  And he replied, " Yep, purple with gold accents."  So a royal color it will be.  I am going with a fairytale theme, but not like pink princess gag me a river stuff.  I am talking dragons, knights, castles, fairies, gnomes, ok, maybe a princess too but this is the kind of princess I am thinking of.

 So I can do what I planned all those years ago when I first got pregnant, though I have not been blessed to keep a child as of yet.  I am excited to see what will come of our hard work.  I will post pictures as we go along.  Ok, so now I should go to bed.  Maybe by writing a bit I will be able to get some sleep.