Stupid Stupid Angst

O to be in England. O to be in Scotland. O to be anywhere but here. I am having Provo Blues. I really need to get out of this valley. I spent all day yesterday calling and talking with friends to let them know of the imminent death of my internet connection. I learned that one friend feel off the AA bandwagon. One friend is going through a hellish mess with her husband. And then there is the one who is dying. So I am feeling very overwhelmed with the fact that my illness and near death experience hasn't allowed me to stay in close contact with my friends. I hope that falling off the edge of the earth for a couple of months doesn't mean everyone has massive evil angst. More later when I have a better amount of time.