In commemoration of my 37th birthday and Milton's 400th. I was feeling old yesterday ... every moment of my 37 years, which isn't so much old, as not young. It is a horribly awkward in between age, but I guess I will give it a 365 day trial and see if it grows on me. And I will start planning the downhill slope with plenty of purple to keep me smiling. I can hear you laughing, and mocking my sorrow. I hear you saying that I am still young ... and you are right, and wrong. I am not a kid anymore. I get increasingly annoyed with my young students ... but here is the plus ... I love knowing things, and not being overwhelmed with the emotions on my 20's and feeling comfortably settled into my thirties. Yes, the more I think about it, each day I come closer and closer to the richness of life that purple portrays, and that excites me, and starts me feeling all thirty seven years young instead of old. So today I celebrate what I was too depressed to enjoy yesterday ... the joy of being comfortable in my skin and admitting that I only barely know who I am. Something I thought I knew in my early twenties was who I was and what I wanted from this world and now I am not crazy enough to believe I will ever truly comprehend all that I am capable of. So I celebrate, survival, love, joy, loss, patience, sorrow, and all that has made me who I am ... and I share it with Milton on this in between day. I am 37 and one day and he is just one day shy of 400! So I will sing myself to sleep with thoughts of places travelled and friends loved. . . start wearing purple, wearing purple ... la de da de da, start wearing purple for me now ... it's just a matter of time.
3 comments:
I love, absolutely love the picture of purple you found! GORGEOUS! And your post was just right. Not old and not young...but still fun, and still just a rich treasure and a fantastic friend. If growing older means writing as you do, and loving others as you have and continue doing then one cannot grow old fast enough. So happy birthday to you! And a merry one to ole Milton. :)
Wow, has it been so long since I've read something you've written? Stac, it's beautiful and I hope to someday achieve the outlook you have on life and of yourself. You have so much wisdom. If thats what a 37th birthday gives a person,then I say bring it on! Thank you for all you do for everyone, for the example you give, and especially for the support you've given me most recently. I love you dearly!
and i am going to find some purple to wear :D
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